I spent most of the year trying not to be dragged by what’s exalted among men. Deep inside, I try to give people a chance to be more than what they appear to be – but this year it really backfired on me.
Most of the struggles I’ve been through this year can be summed up by this passage:
And he said to them, “You are those who justify yourselves before men, but God knows your hearts. For what is exalted among men is an abomination in the sight of God.—Luke 16:15
Mostly I experienced first hand how love is dying.
From utilitarian relationships to mystic friendships, I was right in the middle of the generalized lack of love that leads people to mistake comfort for meaning. Self-indulgence for freedom. Pleasure for love.
Nonetheless, it was only when I was crushed that I realized how much I had loved. How much I had forgiven. Even with all the hurt in my soul, I was being strengthened in love by God.
It is absolutely fascinating to feel what seems to be genuine love under the most adverse circumstances. And to think that isn’t even a fraction of how much God loves me – and you!
Ultimately this year has been showing me that all that matters is that I don’t lose my ability to love. And it’s also taught me to be far more cautious about to whom I give this love that is God’s grace upon me.
Grace & Peace 🙂