A lot of people who meet me have an overrated impression of who I am. Some have even said I’m like an angel, I kid you not!
I don’t know how that feels for others, but for me, knowing that I follow Jesus because I genuinely need him, that feels heavy.
That’s yet another trick of the evil systems of this world. When people decide to put you up on a pedestal, it becomes really hard to just be ourselves around such high expectations.
A few weeks ago, I jumped off that pedestal. I decided to take a bit more liberty and actively show people my imperfections.
To give you tangible examples, I shared more about my disagreements and complained about things, situations and people that I would have normally kept to myself.
The interesting part of it was that nobody seemed to think anything of those imperfections. It was me who had a hard time saying or doing twice what I knew wasn’t me at my best.
It became clear to me that certain situations and relationships were only sustained by my passiveness and silence. The moment I decided to speak up, their falsehood was revealed.
I realized that, for some people, my being like an angel allowed them to be their worst selves without showing repentance. But the problem was, I was being eaten alive by their attitude.
So I appreciated my experience, because it allowed myself to fall deeper into the arms of love, God’s love. I learned to be more assertive about my values before people put me on a pedestal from where I passively watch them like a marble statue.
Our omission is not any better than mistreating others. We are called to love one another, but we need to be assertive.
God’s grace gives us discernment. We should take it and, armed with the loving conscience of Jesus, assert who we are to others.